Tonight We Can Be As One

So just so I don’t forget this I want to turn the entry you are reading into a theological index card. I have too many things to write about at the moment on this space. There was the trip to Hungary and the conference in Dublin and my fiancé on the radio and my laptop breaking and the Ethiopian spiritual leader and maybe I’ll get around to that but not right now.

Now I want to tell you about September 28th 2003. On that fateful day I pulled strings so that my fiancé would be out dancing. Back then she wasn’t my fiancé see? I could still call her my girlfriend without people going “Ha ha, don’t you mean fiancé? Ha ha!”

I broke into her house with my spare keys (which isn’t actually breaking in at all) and began to prepare the most ambitious meal of my life. It was peppers with stuff in them and cream and salsa and it was very delicious and very stressful. There were flowers on the table, fresh lilies and candles and some delicious rosé wine the way she likes it. There was also some kick ass juice because we associate fruit juice with special occasions- fast food junkies that we are. Placed on her dinner mat was a happy meal with toy, for the first ever gift I gave her was in a McDonalds and was a Winnie The Pooh Happy Meal toy. Finally, there was a CD playing the most important songs that we have as a couple.

She came in. I got down on my knees, took the ring out of my pocket and asked her to marry me.

She said yes in amongst the tears of happiness that were turning her into a little girly girl at this, one of the most decisive moments of her life.

I invited her to join me for the rest of her days. I invited her to accept my offer of servanthood and loyalty. I invited her to stick with me through thick and thin.

And she said yes.

But I was reading Max Lucado recently and he made the point that Jesus is constantly waiting at people’s doors. He wants to be invited in. Read the Gospels. Jesus actually spent His life and God spends most of the Bible, inviting us into a relationship with Him.

Instead of responding like my fiancé did, with spontaneous and passionate tears of joy, we respond with apathy. Imagine how you would feel if you loved someone desperately and wanted to dedicate everything you had to them but every time you tried to talk to them about it they brushed you off? Imagine how wrong and awful a behaviour that would be?

Yet that is what we do with God. He breaks into our life and asks us to marry Him and we say, “Well, its not that I am opposed to marriage. I mean, marriage has been in my families for decades. My parents were married, my uncle is married-- even my best friend is married! But you see, I don’t think marriage is for me. Its very good for society Jesus. Marriage to you makes people better- I believe that. But maybe come back to me next week. Lets see, how does Thursday sound? Thursday morning we’ll make time to think this over. No wait, Thursday won’t be good. How about you ring me when you know that you are free and I’ll get back to you. No, no, I’m serious. I believe that marriage is very important for society and I can’t say that I’ve never been tempted by the security it offers people but right now I can’t commit. Sorry, there’s the phone. Let yourself out, will you--.?”

We don’t even give time to deliberate on the question. In the face of the most sincere invitation to love and to union we will ever receive, we push Him out and leave Him in the cold. We promise ourselves we’ll think about that later when we are not so busy and stressed but that never happens and so we never listen to His case even though He is always waiting to deliver it.

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